I Am More Than Capable. Part 1

 

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via Daily Prompt: Capable

For many years, I struggled with the thought of being capable of doing my job. Instead of entering the idealistic world I created for myself in my mind when I graduated, I was met with a harsh reality. In addition to the intricacies involved in doing my job, I received  harsh criticism by co-workers. Those two things left me doubting not only my capabilities but my decision. In hindsight, I realize my inner turmoil was more of my own doing than the co-workers who antagonized me.

I’ve been in my current profession for over thirty years. It wasn’t until the last two years, I’ve felt confident and capable of providing consistent and competent service. For many years, I was bullied and looked down upon by a handful of co-workers. It seemed they lurked about waiting patiently for an opportunity to question and belittle me. I was labeled incapable and no matter how I worked to abolish the stigma, it persisted.

To protect myself and guard my heart, if you will, I avoided them at all costs. Now, you may wonder why or how I feel partially responsible for my situation, after-all bullying is real and can prove more then harmful. Well, I’ve come to realize, the low self esteem, low self confidence and low self worth I suffered from made me a sitting target for bullies.

The fact that I doubted myself, left me open to their condensation and derision. Instead of challenging them and standing up for myself, I cowered in a corner. Now, let me pause here and say, I’m only speaking of my situation and not others who’ve been victims of bullying. Once I realized my self worth and value I bring to my profession, things began to change. It all started with the kind  words of a dear friend who has been relentless in her encouragement and pushing me to find my wings and soar.

I love raptors and my favorite is the Eagle. Many women identify with the butterfly because of the transformation process, but not me. I identify with the Eagle. As a matter of fact, I have a saying for myself; “If you’re going to be an Eagle, be a Harpy.” The Harpy is one of the largest of the Eagle family. Over the past two years, I’ve found my wings and now I’m learning to soar.

I’d love to share my journey with you in hopes it’ll inspire you to find your wings. That being said, stay tuned for more of I Am More Than Capable. 

As always, I hope my thoughts encourage you.

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With Wings as Eagles

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I have a fascination with Eagles. I’ve studied them, watched movies and videos about them and used Biblical reference to them to encourage myself. In my prayer life, the Spirit of God has spoken to me through visions of Eagles. One such vision stands out in my memory. I saw an Eagle on the ground with cords around her wings. She was in a barnyard with a flock of chickens. Instead of using her wings to fly, she floundered around on the ground never really taking flight.

The Spirit of the Lord spoke to me and said, “Why  are you flopping around on the ground like a chicken? Take the cords off your wings and soar like the Eagle you were created to be.”  I didn’t really understand what God meant at that time but as I’ve grown older it’s become increasingly clear. 

Eagles have the fortitude to fly alone; they don’t fly in flocks or coveys or bevies.  They are the only birds to use storm winds and thermals to propel themselves to higher altitudes. No other bird can fly as high as Eagles or as long. The female Eagle doesn’t mate with the first male to come along, instead she tests him by dropping sticks that increase in weight from heights that also increase with each pass.

Unlike Vultures or Crows, Eagles do not eat dead animals and once they set their sites on a particular prey, they don’t lose focus until the mission is accomplished. There is much more on the Eagle I could post, but I think you get my point. 

As I look back over my life, a few things now make sense. I’ve been somewhat of a loner from time to time, not by choice but by Divine intervention. God could not speak to me with other voices clamoring for my attention. In order to hear Him and have me do His will, He had to isolate me on occasion. I, on the other hand, had to be strong enough to endure soaring alone. If you recall, each time God spoke to a prophet of old, he took them apart from others. Even Jesus separated Himself from the disciples in order to commune with the Father.

Once I made the decision to accept God’s will for my life, I studied Eagles further. I wanted to know which Eagle was the largest and strongest. In my research, I found the Harpy Eagle. It lives in the South America and can have a wing span of  seven feet. I figured, as the young people say, I was going to go hard or go home; going home was not an option.

I would like to challenge you to take a look at your life and ask yourself if you, too, have been called to “mount up with wings as Eagles.” Not everyone is called to everything. If all birds were Sparrows, we’d have no Robins. If all were Blue jays, where would the beautiful and fascinating Humming Birds be (which by the way are the only birds with the ability to fly backwards)?

I believe there is much we can learn from the  Eagle. When the storms of life come, use the winds to rise above it. If you find yourself flying alone, don’t be afraid, instead remind yourself you have the fortitude to soar apart from others. When the crowd is going one way, know it’s not necessary to join the flock or bevy or covey, if your heart says otherwise.

It takes guts and tenacity to fly alone but it’s only in solitude one can truly learn themselves and God. So, when you look about you and only see you, close your eyes, take a deep breath and “mount up with wings as Eagles.” And if you’re going to be an Eagle, be a Harpy.

“but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31 ESV

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