I Am More Than Capable. Part 2

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There is nothing worse than reporting to a job day after day, week after week and year after year that adds nothing but anxiety to one’s life. However, that is exactly what I was did for over twenty five years. To say I was miserable is an understatement.

On quite a few mornings, I pulled into the parking lot of my job in tears. To compound matters, I felt trapped. I was financially unable at that time to return to school to facilitate a change in careers, and so I toiled on.

The select group of co-workers who seemed to enjoy berating and castigating me fueled my dismay. I avoided them as best I could, and at the suggestion of my friend I began scheduling myself to work on days they were off. You see, we work three – twelve hour shifts/week, and so, working opposite them helped some. Eventually, I worked full time night shift which took care of working with them at all but, I still had to give shift report.

For about five years, I received a reprieve when I was recruited to be apart of a five year grant funded project. It took me one full year on that job to relax and accept that my new co-workers respected me as an individual and as someone with a high level of intelligence.  It was also liberating because I realized the treatment I received at the hands of my former co-workers was real and not a misperception as they wanted me to believe.

Something wonderful happened during those five years, I grew in confidence and appreciation of who I was created to be. At the end of those years, I returned to my former job a stronger person. I began to stand up for myself although I continued to avoid the naysayers as best I could.

My mother used to tell me, God would move stumbling blocks out of my way. Even with my new found strength, those women were relentless. I began to wonder how much longer it was going to take God to move them or me again. However, God in His infinite wisdom knew my current situation was just strengthening my wings.

I’ve been told the Eagle is the only bird with the ability to fly straight into a storm until she breaks through the clouds and flies above it. If I was going to be a Harpy Eagle, God knew I was going to need strong wings.

Stay tuned for more of “I Am More Than Capable.”

As always, I hope my thoughts encourage you.

Ciao!

Savannah J. providing a place of tranquility away from the stress of life.

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I Am More Than Capable. Part 1

 

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via Daily Prompt: Capable

For many years, I struggled with the thought of being capable of doing my job. Instead of entering the idealistic world I created for myself in my mind when I graduated, I was met with a harsh reality. In addition to the intricacies involved in doing my job, I received  harsh criticism by co-workers. Those two things left me doubting not only my capabilities but my decision. In hindsight, I realize my inner turmoil was more of my own doing than the co-workers who antagonized me.

I’ve been in my current profession for over thirty years. It wasn’t until the last two years, I’ve felt confident and capable of providing consistent and competent service. For many years, I was bullied and looked down upon by a handful of co-workers. It seemed they lurked about waiting patiently for an opportunity to question and belittle me. I was labeled incapable and no matter how I worked to abolish the stigma, it persisted.

To protect myself and guard my heart, if you will, I avoided them at all costs. Now, you may wonder why or how I feel partially responsible for my situation, after-all bullying is real and can prove more then harmful. Well, I’ve come to realize, the low self esteem, low self confidence and low self worth I suffered from made me a sitting target for bullies.

The fact that I doubted myself, left me open to their condensation and derision. Instead of challenging them and standing up for myself, I cowered in a corner. Now, let me pause here and say, I’m only speaking of my situation and not others who’ve been victims of bullying. Once I realized my self worth and value I bring to my profession, things began to change. It all started with the kind  words of a dear friend who has been relentless in her encouragement and pushing me to find my wings and soar.

I love raptors and my favorite is the Eagle. Many women identify with the butterfly because of the transformation process, but not me. I identify with the Eagle. As a matter of fact, I have a saying for myself; “If you’re going to be an Eagle, be a Harpy.” The Harpy is one of the largest of the Eagle family. Over the past two years, I’ve found my wings and now I’m learning to soar.

I’d love to share my journey with you in hopes it’ll inspire you to find your wings. That being said, stay tuned for more of I Am More Than Capable. 

As always, I hope my thoughts encourage you.

Ciao!

Savannah J. providing a place of tranquility away from the stress of life.

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“See The End Game”

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One of my favorite movies is Life of A King. It’s based on the story of Eugene Brown, the gentleman who started The Big Chair Chess Club for inner-city youth living in Washington D. C. Each time I watch the movie, I learn something new. However, no matter how many new lessons I glean with each viewing, my favorite remains “you must see the end game.” There is so much wisdom in that short sentence.

During the movie, Mr. Brown played by the talented, Cuba Gooding Jr, repeatedly tells his students to “think before you move. You must see the end game.” Regardless our age we can all apply those words of wisdom to our lives. How many disasters or tragic situations could have been avoided had we thought before we moved? I can think of a few circumstances in my life that would have gone differently had a paused and considered the outcome before acting.

As I travel this journey called life, I look for small lessons I can hold onto to help me grow and navigate the sometimes rocky places. Mr. Brown’s advice to “think before you move. You must see the end game” is one such nugget I now use often or at least attempt to. I do hope you, too, will find his advice useful.

It’s not always possible to make the right decision, all we can do is try as best we can. But in that attempt to make sound and concrete choices, lets remember Mr. Brown’s advice. “Think before you move. Remember to see the end game.”

As always, I hope my thoughts encourage you.

Ciao!

Savannah J. providing a place of tranquility away from the stress of life.

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Passing the Test

IMG_0172I recently read a short article on the silence of God. The author spoke about why God is silent and with his explanation used a great analogy which caught my attention. The writer reminded us that in the classroom during a test, the teacher is always quiet. As a matter of fact, everyone is quiet and the only sound heard is that of pencil against paper.

I’ve been through many silent times in my life, some causing me to wonder where God was, or if He even heard me. Following those situations, I’ve learned the author was right. God is silent because we are being tested. The outcome of the test isn’t that we receive what we’ve prayed for but that we trust God’s will for our lives.

God was silent when my heart yearned for many things, some inline with His will according to His word. Some of the things I prayed for I received, some I did not. Although I didn’t understand why the answer was no when I didn’t receive what I’d prayed for, in the long run, I received something far greater. I gained the peace of God; I gained contentment in the state I found myself in and I learned to trust God with my life.

There will be more tests in my lifetime, of that I’m sure. My prayer is, I Pass the Test. My prayer for those reading this is the same and that is, when God is silent, we remember the teacher is always quiet during the Test.

Ciao!

Savannah J.  providing a place of tranquility away from the stress of life. 

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For the ladies: Shinning Stars!

 

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Greetings ladies! I’d like to share with you about a wonderful transformation period, I’ve been growing through. During this time, I’ve been reflecting on what got me to this place and the necessity to move forward. I would like to share my journey with you in hopes it will both inspire and encourage you.

In order to understand my journey, let me take you back to the beginning. I was raised by a mother who believed in me from day one. She, along with my older sisters poured greatness into me, and like a sponge, I soaked it up. In my later years, however, my growth would be temporarily stunted as I would encounter young women who were apparently intimidated or made uncomfortable by my personality.  I was labeled as one who “thought I was cute,” or “thought I was better than everyone else.” This ladies, wasn’t the case at all but it was enough to stop me in my tracks. To further illustrate my point, consider this analogy.

There are billions of stars in the sky, some shine brighter than others but they all shine. Each of the stars has a purpose, just as God created each of us with a purpose. Some people are created to be leaders, while there are those who are placed in the auxiliary role. What we must understand is each role is important. Where would the President be without his Vice President and supportive staff. How could a General lead an army into battle without the backing of his soldiers. The young women I encountered back then were too immature to grasp that truth but more importantly, I allowed myself to succumb to the peer pressure and jealousy and tucked myself away.

As I embark on this new awaking in myself, one thing has become clear; the voices of discouragement and disparagement are not relegated to childhood alone.  We often hear the advice, to be careful with whom we share our plans, visions and goals. This, my dear sisters is pure truth.

I have found even in adulthood there are those who are so busy coveting their sister’s star, they can’t see the light emanating from their own. These women, perhaps struggling to deal with their own pain, will place a damper on someone else in order to feel good about themselves. If you’ve encountered this type of friend, it’s important to remove yourself from their company as quickly as possible. She may be a family member or close friend; it doesn’t mean you stop loving them, or even hanging out with them, it just means you must guard your heart. As we grow, it’s important to share our dreams and goals with like-minded individuals and those who are currently more successful than we. By doing so, we surround ourselves with positive energy.

As I mature and become comfortable in my skin and with who I am, I find doors are opening on a daily basis. I’ve embraced who God has created me to be and I no longer allow the negative opinions, stares or comments of others to deter me. “I have gone from zero to my own hero . . .” like the words in Katy Perry’s song “Roar.”

My diet has improved, I exercise three to four times weekly and I spend each morning in the Word of God. These are some of the steps I’ve taken to turn my life around and move in the direction God has for me and thereby fulfill the destiny my mother saw in me. I hope as you read my words, you will embrace your star and let it shine brightly and remember what God has for you is for you. Find your own truth and grab a hold to it. Spend time with you and your Higher Power (I choose to call mine God) and your inner star will guide you in the direction of growth unique to you.  Now, go get your blessings!

Ciao!

Savannah, she adds a little sass in every page.

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